Tuesday, June 30, 2009

what is Friendship?

A Friend ....

Accepts you as you are
Believes in you
Calls you just to say ~Hi~
Doesn't give up on you
Envisions the whole of you
Forgives your mistakes
Gives unconditionally
Helps you
Invites you over
Just because
Keeps you close at heart
Loves you for who you are
Makes a difference in your life
Never judges
0ffers support
Picks you up
Quiets your fears
Raises your spirits
Says nice things about you
Tells you the truth when you need to hear it
Understands you
Values you
Walks beside you
Xxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Yells when you won't listen and
Zaps you back to reality

anonymous

I deadly want a friend like this, but the main question is am I one like that?
I seriously need to change myself, my character actually, as a friend of my peeps.
I know sometimes I made them angry, mad and annoyed with my attitude. I didn't mean it though sometimes I wished I do. Sometimes, I talked behind their back, because I know they talked behind me too. I feel good when I do that because now they feel the way that I do, but I also know and I too feel the way that they feel, after the sweet little revenge; I feel bitter and not better.

I want to be better because my dear friends deserve it, as well as myself.
I want to start remember their full name as well as their birthday which I am not good at. I want to know even little, what they love and what they hate.
I want to appreciate them, for their existence in my life, as they give me happiness. Though some gives me sadness, they actually gave me lessons too.

I also want to try my best to find my old acquaintances back on my school era. It is a pity and a waste to have a lot of friends but do not keep in contact with them.

I hope that my friends too, has the same understanding with me, and together we fulfill all A to Z of FRIENDSHIP.

Monday, June 29, 2009

i am happy

chongmal haengbok...I finished my final exam on 24th June but only got home yesterday on 28. I packed my things and my computers with the help from my roommates and Fadz. I am really grateful they were there to help me.

Now, the reason why I am so happy is that I am finally inside my home. It has been a while since my last visit and I miss my mom terribly. I bought her Big Apple and my Dad just love it. I think I will buy Big Apple every time I come back home. (If I have some money left)

For three days, Nisa, a boy (which I should not tell whom) and me stayed in Yaya's home. We had BBQ party and Hanis was there too! We had beautiful memories and pictures. Fadz and Aimi were supposed to join us but they both have their own agenda with their families. Yaya picked us up at UIA and we went straight to Putrajaya's pasar malam. We met her abah there and bought some food. We didn't do much activity on the first stay there. We just went out ambil angin malam and ate ice-creams and taking pictures. That very night, I, Nisa and Yaya were supposed to berjoyah, and while we do that, I fall asleep. hahaha...They talked till 2 in the morning and as I was sleeping at the middle, they woke me up and shoo me to change place with Nisa. And I was the last person to wake up. The next day, we went to Alamanda with Afiq, Yaya's cute and manja little brother. we watched movie together. Me and Nisa chose 'Drag me to hell' and Yaya with her two brothers watched 'Transformers'. 'Drag me to hell' leave me with anger. gila geram ngan nenek tua tu. jahat gila. There are lots of disgusting events and shocking too! But the ending is really sad. And before the film started, there were a couple doing their own movie. After the movie end, I bought a pair of jeans. I don't have enough money to splurge but it was an exceptional case. I wet my jeans that I was wearing! No! Not with urine but water. Thanks to bidet on Alamanda's rest room. Seriously, why can't they use normal hose? It is not easy to squat wearing jeans and adjusting you butt at the same time to clean stuff. I tried my best to cover my butt with my bag and Nisa' body. That night, on the second day of our stay, we had BBQ. Me ate Nasi Daging 2 times with 1 chicken wing and hotdog. That was the first round menu. I ate for the second round with hanis. When I thought I was full, Yaya's cousin brought cupcakes! And I ate sausages and chicken again.
On the third day, we went to Hanis place and ate Soto. Hanis bangun seawal pagi untuk menguruskan kentang. Btw hanis, kentang ko mmg sedap! Soto joint venture Kak Tuti and Hanis' Mother is soooo delicious. I don't remember berapa kali tambah. I ate some, answered nature calls and ate again. Boleh bukak kedai Soto la. Besides eating, we also berjoyah. But our joyah was cut short as we have to go to Taman Wetland to fetch Yaya's brother. And went to Alamanda again! I bought Big Apple for my family and we ate at Secret Recipe.

For two days straight we went out at night jalan2 and taking pictures and eating ice-creams. We went to Masjid, jambatan and all. Sounds like it was my first time there but actually I have been to Putrajaya a couple of times spending my days at Hanis place. We had girl’s night out, the plan of meeting DBSK at the airport and stuff. What a memory.

I didn't tell Yaya but this party for my opinion brings me closer to her. We were close during matriculation days together with Nisa. We went to class together, had our meals together and talked, smiled, laughed non-stop but time went by. We were apart for awhile. we had our own friends and our own way. I am happy that we are together in this, like we used to be on Matriculation days. And I hope that since Hanis and Yaya already knew each other's house, and they are both my good friends, please don't berjoyah about me ye...hahahah....

Friday, June 12, 2009

Tag!

1) Bekas kekasih saya adalah
* Minho..tapi saya akan sentiasa memerhati dan menjaga dia dari jauh...

2) Saya sedang mendengar
* suara anak menakan saya...

3) Mungkin saya patut
* buat report saya cepat2 dari buat tag ni...hehehe...kena submit today tapi xde mood nak wat la.

4) Saya suka
* kaum Adam yang berbangsa Korea dan menyanyi dlm group (n_n) , jalan2 dan makan.

5) Sahabat-sahabat saya
* ada banyak. dari Subang,Ipoh,Jitra,Sg. Petani dan UIA, tapi hampir 92% lost contact. hahahaha...macam mana ni~

6) Saya tak faham
* kenapa orang selalu kata saya sombong. saya sbenarnya seorang yang peramah, kelakar dan baik hati.

7) Saya kehilangan
* telefon kesayangan saya. huhu~sedihnya...

8) Ramai yang berkata
* saya ni sombong. Saya sebenarnya seorang yang peramah, lawak, manis dan baik.

9) Cinta itu adalah
* permulaan bagi kejujuran dan kadang kala pembohongan dimana toleransi dan komunikasi adalah penting. definisi saya terlalu teknikal kerana saya tidak dilamun cinta lagi. harap sila memahami.hehe~

10) Disuatu tempat, seorang sedang...
* menunggu saya submit report.

11) Saya akan cuba
* kurangkan berat badan dengan bersenam dan berenang...Hanis~jgn lupa ajar aku brenang ye!

12) Ayat selamanya membawa maksud...
* apa ni...saya x paham.

13) Telefon bimbit saya
* adalah W80i berwarna putih kepunyaan abang saya.

14) Bila saya terjaga
* terus saya ikat rambut dan kemas katil.

15) Saya paling meluat
* orang yang tak menepati masa.
* tengah saya semangat nak berchit-chat atau download videos yang lagi 10 saat nak siap, internet ada probs. hei, geram betul!
* tumbuh jerawat baru. sama macam mama n Hanis! besala, hawa.
* orang yang mengutuk saya bila ada kawan. bila kawan dia xde, terkedek2 datang cari saya.

16) Haiwan paling comel yang pernah saya temui
* anak kucing! dulu, saya ada kucing jantan nama Mei. selepas itu, ada anak kucing datang rumah saya. saya bagi nama dia Mei Mei. tapi, Mei rogol Mei Mei, Mei Mei pun mengandung. anak2 Mei Mei seekor je hidup. Saya pun jaga. Dia hidup sehari je, tapi saya sempat bagi nama, iaitu Anak Mei Mei. Mei dan Mei Mei saya tinggalkan di Sg. Petani sebab depa xnak naik keta ikut pindah. sedihnya~

17) Malam ini saya akan
* download videos dan musik dan ym.

18) Ketika anda melihat cermin pada hari ini
* kulit dah makin kusam. xpakai produk katakan.

19) Saya betul-betul inginkan
* Jung Yunho. lelaki idamanku. saya boleh bayangkan betapa bagusnya dia sebagai seorang bapa...

20) Siapa yang anda ingin tag
* sesiapa pun xpe.

For those who have a blog or two and have time to read

There is that high school stuff, MySpace to Friendster then Blog and Facebook. Actually, I don’t know the chronology. I used to have an account for MySpace and Friendster. If you typed my name, you will see a nearly 2 years of unlogged in account of MySpace and a Friendster under my real name but Nanny Fran’s picture with less than 2 friends. I put Nanny Fran’s picture because I love that show especially that funny and full of sarcastic butler. Hehehe… I forgot his name actually and both e-mail together with passwords to log in. Alhamdulillah, I remember my now e-mail which is the fourth account I have created so far though sometimes I confused my YouTube and blog password.

Here in this blog I choose to touch on various topics that interest me cause if not, why should I write and even post it, rite? I wrote about Kpop world, general stuff and me with friends stuff. I choose to write it in a positive way, as best as I could, and I hope best to those who read, with exceptional for Minho’s new nose. This is because, a blog which has its own class, a freedom of opinion with no limitation and bare-naked to public’s eyes and face is a no-no for 4D, ‘Drop Dead Dumb and Disgusting’ post that can call for death. Brutal huh.

A blog though we may call it MY BLOG, is sadly not ours only. Our family, friends, race, country and religion has their own shares. Our blog can tell a story, which we ourselves write. It is just like a novel or a short story. A story though it does not tell the real life events of the writer, in most cases, it reflects what the author believes in and eventually people will link it with their parents, environment, and most extreme, religion. Just like what we had learnt in Novel and Short Story class. It may reflect the author’s behavior, feelings and mind through the way it is presented and the choice of words. If we keep on blogging about our hatred, our prejudice and stuff like that, are we leaving readers with a good impression? Definitely not, unless we serve our friends and anonymous readers from around the globe with intelligent, wise and just good posts.

But that doesn’t mean that we HAVE to blog on knowledgeable, good from its seed till its fruit and stuff like that, just control. A continuous good stuff is awesome, continuous happy events and a little sad news is good, continuous good mix bored stuff is fine but a continuous bad stuff is a disaster. A web disaster. Yes, it is as simple as that. Sometimes, we just have to, we need to, pour our anger or disgust as we are at the peak of patience, we are on the verge of screaming till our throat hoarse in public place, or our mind is at the second of explosion but seriously, control.

If we can control our anger starting after the event that made us pissed off and go back home and membebel kat mak ada orang cari pasal, sleep and eat or pray to God asking some patience and made our Iman stronger, then you remember you have a place to pour out all your anger, so you rock the laptop or computer, connecting the internet, log in to Blog.com, write an emotional essay, and delete, and write again, put “you scumbag of the earth”, or more samseng and ganas b*** dan seangkatan dengannya, and delete it again, thinking it is too harsh, thus replace with another ‘b’ word in English or “go to hell”, as English is subtle than Malay, followed with ABC Spelling & Grammar and click send; we definitely have time to think about our action and its consequences. Importantly, if the topic deals with other people’s life. All of us know that a post in a blog can show us the way to court and even jail and might be in worst case scenario, ISA. I read from a newspaper about a blogger charged with fitnah and was brought to court. A blog can be a platform of truth and reality but it also can be a plantation of lies and fitnah. And if some readers accept lies as truth, and spread to others, a life is affected, justice is disturbed thus trust collapsed.

For me, rather than updating my own blog, I enjoy reading others, I have the thought of deleting my account twice btw. Updating blog is like homework for me. I don’t really enjoy homework though it is for my own benefit. I love reading people’s little world as I love to read on things that I never come cross with. I read from friends to a complete stranger to an extreme anonymous till an extreme famous-glamour-happening-gossip-ME blogs. It is also because of my belief that everyone and each of us has some knowledge or experiences or opinions that are beneficial, which others don’t have or yet to have. Thus, it is a pleasurable thing if we can share it.

Perfect grammar and beautifully written sentences in an interesting topic will leave me with a smile, good impression and envy too that made me say “What a good English/ Malay and what a wise and good perspective such and such can see”. A just shocking, disturbing and 99% annoying blog made me put a face that calls for slaps from family till friends, twice on each cheek. It is not just a matter of portraying our real self, or being honest, it is a matter of ethics in World Wide Web, morals and our own name. Do not take anonymity or freedom of writing as a base for us to touch or stand, for writing trash, rather choose to respect others and give yourself and those that might intentionally or unintentionally affected some respect too. It is not that we will win anything by talking back monitor to monitor towards someone or express hatred and objection. I talk based on experience and observation.

I put my blog under fine category, a continuous good mix bored stuff. In my opinion, a line between good and bored depends on the interest of the readers and writers, but a line between good and bad depends on our belief and moral.

P/s: Respect, relax and response.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

On outings and Mr. Ramen

Short semester is very short, ironically there is still a plenty of time to kill. I nearly got sick with boredom. Fortunately I have cool roommates and friends to spent time with.

So far, I’ve went to Genting Highland with cutey honey, Nisa and joined Nani and her clan there. That is my first time going to a fun fair and I hope to go there again with xkuaseknah and family of course.

I’ve been to Taman Metropolitan with all my roommates but sadly on a bad time and a bad day. Insyaallah, I will go there again with proper planning. It is a beautiful place to hang out and play and have picnic.

The third outing which is an unforgettable one is me and Hanis plan of eating Korean food. Hanis and I went to KLCC with just this one mission. But the restaurant was closed! Xlaku kot. I ended up with Yoshinoya and Hanis with Western food.

Last but not least, me and Nisa, again, had some fun time together at Berjaya Times Square. We did a little shopping and lots of window shopping, cuci mata which is a must and have second round lunch or preferably call it as an early dinner; at 3.30 pm. Hahaha…panggil makan petang la…tapi yang berat punya.

We ate at Mr. Ramen and were shocked! Deadly delicious food with rich, creamy and fresh fruit juices! Nisa ordered Japanese Loh Udon which is a risk as we don’t know what the hell Loh means. I ordered a safer choice out of variety of food that is Spicy Tom Yam Seafood Ramen. Very safe choice kan? Ahahhaha…

Nisa’s food came out to be a creamy and thick Mushroom soup with lots of seafood and chicken. The amalgamation of Udon and mushroom soup is perfectly delicious. Udon absorbed the soup’s taste and still leave its original flour taste. An alien to our Malay tongue but we can adapted to it as quickly as 2 spoons. Mana x nyer, sedap yang amat kot. Mine is The Rock. Walaupun Tom Yam datang dari Thailand, orang Nepal pun pandai buat oo though tak sespicy yang I want. depa x kedekut bahan, mangkuk pun besar. Mmg kenyang la. X macam café kat sini. And the price is affordable. I have put aside some money to go there again, this time with Hanis and Huda, after I finish with final exam. I can’t wait. I want to try combo set which is Chicken Katsu Don that comes together with California Roll, Mango Pudding and Japanese Green Tea. Aahhh…sukanya!

Lots of money spent outside means little money to spend inside. Nestum and Quaker oat becomes my staple food now.

Btw, Maryam’s café has improved a lot. There is a lot of variety of food to choose, with clean and welcoming environment. The price is also cheap! Lepas ni agaknya makin berisi la budak Maryam. I love going to Maryam now. Just to inform you girls that Maryam Café won first place during Quality week. Second place is Evoke café. Evoke suddenly murah harini. Mungkin sebab dah tukar cashier kot…Alhamdulillah.

A lesson to remember

In my previous post, I said I wonder what will lose next, and the answer is my wallet.

Me seriously, lost my wallet just this late morning while chit chatting via World Wide Web with Hanis Sulaiman. Me in ITD and she was in her cozy home. I was surrounded with a lot of girls and ironically, broken computers. Based on my poor calculation and memory, I tried four times to log in using four different computers and the smart computers said that I do not put the correct password. At that moment, I really want to have a seat with good and functioning computer to know what the earth is going on with Kpop world!

I am forgetful and I was clumsy.

I jumped from one seat to another and accidently left my wallet on one of the tables. Me deadly think and even now still believe I put my wallet back in my bag! But the evidence and witness says the opposite. After my alarmed clock rang, I quickly wrote daa to Hanis and log off. I did not even once glance back. Well, this is understandable because it is not like I’m leaving my boyfriend on a jet plane. I was only alarmed on this unfortunate event a couple of minutes later while wanting to buy delicious, red and icy cold watermelon juice before run to my Arabic Class. Alhamdulillah I did not ordered it yet, if not, malu besar mak nyah…

I was shocked and after I knew what was missing from my life, I quickly walkathon from HS Café to ITD and found nothing. Not even a clue.

I was wrong.

I ask people there, I loafing around with mega movement as I always do, panicking, and hoping my wallet will come back to me. I nearly broke down. This has been two times I lost my wallet containing all my important cards. My Identity card, two Bank cards, Matric card, The Body shop Card and Dental Card. Excluding my cards, in total; I’ve lost my wallet four times. I even asked for help from my Research Methodology lecturer. Kebetulan jer jumpa. I went to Pak Guard Station and filled forms. The officer there was a very friendly man and showed his sympathized and gave advice. Rhyme. He told me to go back to where I believed my wallet has gone and also checked all female toilets around there. In some cases, wallets are found in toilet with of course no cash, just trash. Rhyme. I followed his advice as Malay says; dengar cakap orang tua. I went to the crime scene again and found a piece of evidence. A note pasted on the door.

Salam,
ATTENTION TO (my full name)
I FOUND YOUR PURSE ON MONDAY AT 10:25AM. COME & CLAIM IT FROM ME, YANA. I’M WAITING YOUR CALL.

I went there thrice, and didn’t see it… the fourth one, Allah opens my eyes and my mouth utters Alhamdulillah and I remember Him more than usual days.

I am always nasii.

I am happy. And I am sad too.

I remembered my days when I lost a hundred plus ringgit, and my Fellow said something that I disagree, then and believe now. My money which was frequently lost might be because I don’t do amal jariah and sadaqah. Sometimes, Allah took back something from us, because it is not ours from the beginning, and also to remind us as we are originally forgetful, that sadaqah is very important. It helps us as well as it helps our Muslim and non-Muslim friends. The same goes to Zakah. A portion from our a’mal mufrad mal is not ours. It is other Muslims portion.
Abah,Mak,Hanis and Yana, the girl that found my wallet, all said, “ pasni hati2” or “ jangan cuai dah”. And I happily accept their advice.

What a lesson to learn, to remember and to be grateful.
So, my answer for previous post is, I am forgetful and careless.

p/s: you girls can contact me using my old number now. (n_n) I am Happy!