The Silence

Silence kills a man’s spirit.

Numb a heart- cold. With no sound but may-

be a breeze of air.

To merry a soul-who was bound to despair,

A man’s spirit must kill The Silence.

That appears in the room of emotion,

the suicidal heart (screaming for air).

Its been a while...

i didn't post any entry. if i have time to do it, i still have problems in how to write things as sometime words could not described what your heart really feel. i'm quite busy this semester as i have 3 presentations and 2 paper work. besides that i have to accompany my sister to The Lost World of Tambun in Perak ( what do they mean by lost world btw?) and then have to accompany her again to PD. right now i have problems log in to mypsychlab. this thing always bothered me since i first reg. menyusahkan betul. relax2.bende remeh jer tip..huhu...sabar..

HELL?

For unBenl student ( ok ok i created it.again.) you'll think of the angry fire burning and torturing those whom commit great sin to God but for Benl student, it means History of The English Language. some call it HOTEL. whatever. as nobody knows, tomorrow July 21st, I'll have HELL quiz which cover only 2 chapters but Madam Normala only thought one chapter only. She said that she do not prepare or think of what questions she want to ask until the night before quiz. previous semester student faced more difficulty. so I'll just bare with it. some people know that i love history but there are some conditions too. first, i prefer book with colorful papers or at least a picture or map so that i can see something else instead of alphabets. second, i prefer to read a chapter earlier but with a little introduction from the lecturer. so that i know a little how the story goes. but, lecturers have their own style of teaching which they think are best for the students. and for that, students are the one who need to be flexible instead of complaining (like me). so, why don't we together (or alone) face this small challenges with positive attitude. it does not only good for our marks but for our attitudes too.

i'll make it short and bold

I've lost 3 kilograms!

muahahaha...but of course i have a long way to go to get my ideal weight. as i'm 5'4 tall i should i guess weight around 55-51 kg. hmm...

HAPPY!

Hello there, it's been a long time i did not post an entry right. well not right cause you don't even care if i post an entry or not ne? haha...I'm in a good mood today though i have a lot of assignments to do and not to forget, tomorrow I'm going to have a Q&A session for Usul Al-Fiqh. other than that is Psychology assignment AND homework, History of English language assignment and Phonetics and Phonology presentation. thank god as for History and Civilization there's no assignment but we'll have 2 mid-term papers and 2 quizzes. so. as you can see, this semester i took 5 subjects excluding Tilawah. i went to Tilawah class last week but Ustaz didn't show up and only 5 students came.WTH.

PTPTN dah masuk and that means i can spare some money for contact lenses. it's getting annoying dancing and exercising with my spectacles sliding down to my button nose. if i do not wear them i couldn't see clearly. ah, fyi ima wa I'm learning SNSD Kissing You dance. it's easy but too fast and my body is terribly stiff. apart from that it's fun dancing to 'Noona Nomu Yeopo' song but of course it's disastrous especially dancing with Huda. ahahah...you are so funny.

Today, i bought a book titled ' Panduan Tajwid & Taranum' by my Ustaz back in 2004 when i was in Teknik SP 1. Ustaz Haji Abdul Ghani Ariffin is so soft spoken and always smile that he can make you like him in just a minute. i still remeber him smiled at my Al-Fatihah recitation. hehe...i have problems in pronouncing some words. The main point is I'm very lucky that i got to learned Tajwid from Ustaz Ariffin and at the same time proud for buying his book as it can bring back memories although i have attempt to skip his class once and the fact that my tajwid is still so-so. now, i feel regret for not paying attention to his lecture. balasannya, dapat Tilawah 1.

oh yes! i have add new link which is DBSK fan and Hangul lesson web. for DBSK fan, please check her blog. She (aged 14!) posted quite a few pictures of our boys that can make you lol. i almost cried watching some of the pics. what if i put some of the pic? the rest you can check for your self. i found it when i was googling Naver. and btw now i can write and read hangul a bit. i can't write/read fast yet but it's improving. can't wait to take Hangul class yo. kupul duit kumpul duit...

pic source : Soompi, xietinlovehero and others unknown sources.


i can accept JJ, CM and Micky but HoSu especially Junsu, seriously mcm kena rasuk(possessed).


CM : WHAT? I'M HUNGRY OK! muahahaha...btw their backdancer looks like a male stalker watching them waiting for the right time to attack...hahahaha....


OK, maybe i'm a lil bit bias here but Yunho look soooooo cute in this pic..though i dont like his hair style and Micky's adam apple is so HOT. not to mention his lips. my favourite! and JJ, it's his habit.

New Semester

tomorrow i will heading back to Gombak as classes will start this Monday. i will arrive there before noon i guess as my bus is at 8.30 a.m. i can't wait to start cleaning my new room cause it is incredibly dirty. i bet the person who last owned that room was fined. the floor is so dirty that it is nearly impossible to walk into my rooms without wearing slipper. plus i need to unpacking all those treasures of mine that is useless but i still keep it as my mind can't stop thinking 'what if i need them'..huh...I'm totally a freak when it comes to throw my things although it is just plain garbage..hehehe...ok i exaggerated a bit..and this sem will be a new experience for me, i hope so, as my schedule is different with all xkuaseknah people. i hope i can make a couple of new friends and hopefully i don't get any lecturers from hell...

p/s...abah beli sate wis...huhuhu...saja bagi besa...muahahaha

Sepet vs Bulat

When I started this blog, I never have a thought about posting an entry related to my family cause for me it is a private matter...today, I changed my mind. Wonder what kind of supernatural power that leads me to do this? My mother on-off sixth sense; humour. This afternoon my sister, my parents and me went to K.L ( Kuala Lipis muahaha ) to seek a dentist. Last night Awnie cried quite badly and said that her teeth hurts. On the way back home we had to wait for my cousin Mimi to finish her class. We waited for more than half an hour. So, we killed our time by talking and laughing. I told my mother that my friends said that the sound that I made when I laughed is weird…and that Nadal called me audio while Hanis video..Then my sister ask my mother why is it in our family only atip mata sepet? Mmg soalan kurang ajar…my mother said that it is because we have a little Chinese blood running in our veins and body…(which is very little to be exact.we are more to Banjar+Malay) which her answer does not answer why me only…She told us that she has a friend that look like a Japanese cause his eyes are so sepet you couldn’t see his black eyes. And when he laugh you can only see a line..like this maybe..(-_-) ?? mauahahah.. While her other friends have mata bulat tapi hujung mata tetiba sepet…and this friend's younger sibling punya mata is totally sepet...she laughed like hell…poor that person…and suddenly my mom said out of sympathy…kesian dia…mata sepet ni cacat tau.macam ada kaki tapi xde, in a very serious tone and I was like..habis tu, mak kata atip cacat mak??? and mom was like..tak, tak, mak x kata kat atip...Owh god…I couldn't stop laughing for about 5-7 minutes…my mother reaction is totally unpredictable…

Maybe some of you said that my eyes is not sepet but if you compare my eyes with my family members…you will think I’m adopted…for now, i'll show you Awnie pic first...just scroll down and if you see a girl with big eyes, that's her.

92% and headache

i just finished playing/stuDYING korean alphabet quiz just now and the result is i got 92% and as a bonu; headache...i'll give you the url later for you to try and if you are unlucky like me, you will have headache too...god, i need to lay down now...and btw, never do grammar quizzes
together with hangul...never...the result is more grammatical error...

boredoom

ima wa, I’m bored...I have nothing to do and I’m slightly down today... I’m not going to tell you why as it will only make me feel horrible...at first, I wanted to post an entry about an article from Reader's Digest discussing elements that will lead to a happy life but as I’m unhappy today, I’ll post it later. Someday, when I can get back to my senses. Guys, I want to do something...my body, mind and soul crave for something that my brain do not know what...they just want something new...to be honest, I’m getting bored with this blog...I started doing this because I wanted to share something, to talk or whatsoever but now, I don’t think this thing gave benefits to me...now I realized that what I really want is to talk to someone....verbally....I do have friends but I just can’t let the words slip easily from my mouth...I feel that for each person that I know, there is a certain limit or certain way of approaching....for example, with A, I can laugh with her, tease her or even lay beside her but to tell her what I view life as is totally unimaginable. That is all that I can share with her. for me, each of every person that I befriends with will received different kinds of 'service' or approach from me...sorry, I cant think of other words besides 'service'...as with A, she see me as a good person as I treat her nicely while with B I might act like a serious, matured or angry person, with C I might act like her friends that she can always rely on, someone that will stand up and fight with anything or anyone that hurt her badly without any sound arguments while with D I might be a totally b*tch. Why? Because I treated people by the way she/he treated me...I’m a person who will expect 50% if I gave to him/her 50%...example, if I talk to him/her politely, I expect him/her to do the same. If I tease her, she can do the same...simple...if I received more than that, I’ll definitely treat her better as she deserves it but if I received less, it will hurt my feelings and I might treat her just like what she did to me...of course I do let certain things slip away or pretend not to see what they have done but if they take my careless attitude for granted and keep on repeating the same thing, they should be careful. There’s a bomb ticking waiting to explode inside me. People might say that if a person done bad to me it is maybe because I did the same thing to him/her...I do believe that. That is why even if I’m angry with someone, I still befriends to him/her as I think I probably hurt him/her. And as she gave me second chance by still talking to me, I will do the same...but as I mentioned earlier, there is a certain limit. You cross the line and you'll die. It has been 3 years since I last gave a person heart attack. my teachers and friends might wrote the incident in their dairies...jk...it did leave bad impression of me but I deserved it and that person who received my 'service' deserved it too...so, no regret..50-50...neither win nor loose. Some people might think that I'm inconsiderate which i don't mind as people would not expect me to be flawless then, which is a burden for a man.I'm a complex person. I’m a difficult person to be exact but trust me; if you leave good impression to me, I’ll certainly do the same...

angle will be treated like an angle...

p/s: as usual please excuse my grammar. (n_n)