Gift for yourself.../ mission in the making...

Change yourself from bad to good...and the outcome will definitely boost your life..as people will love you more and importantly, you yourself love the girl/boy inside of you....

Appreciate things even if it is small...i love this part as I'm a romantic kind of person (what??the test says that...not me), for me, if a man says that he want to give me a present and then show the 'present' which is the rainbow, i will definitely say yes!even if he didn't ask anything...hohoho...I'm already happy thinking about it...hahaha

Be positive...hhmmm....hard to master...but posting this post is one of a positive thing right..start slowly...

Save money...mmmmm....money is important, skang beras naik harga ooo....

Eat healthily, exercise regularly....i have to buy sport shoes first, then there will be no more excuse...love your body...

make new friends...hit my blog and be proud to have a new friend from Malaysia...

Be independent....being independent is reaaaaaally fun and adventurous...try it and you'll know it.

Love to receive and give love...especially from nice guy....hahaha...kiddin'....i love Malaysia!!!Majulah sukan untuk negara!!!!!(reader:wtf?)

Smile,smile,laugh...my expertise and my friends will agree with it...tend to smile and an explosion of laugh will follow even if I'm alone...this disease is called habit but my friend called it split personality.

Jejak kasih....

I'm looking for my old buddies!!!!And new ones are welcome!!!
If you were born in 1988 and were form 1-2 in Sek. Men. Kg. Pasir Puteh in Ipoh please let me know...
if you were form 3 students on 2003 in Sek. Keb. Sri Mahawangsa in Jitra, please do the same...
AND, if your name or your friend's name is Ally Ng from Ipoh and was a student of MGS (if I’m correct),please alert me....I saw a video and one of the subbing team is called Ally, my instinct said that its her but there are thousands of people out there have the same name though....it's better to find your friend through friendster or myspace, as what my sister did and the outcome is something that can make your jaw drop...even her primary classmates get in touch with her back(and btw,her bf now is her ex-classmate in standard 4...huhu...feel happy for her but at the same time worried. she is older than me but less experienced in love relationship matters...) but I'm getting bored with those myspace and friendster....(and was lazy to on9 and now lazy to even check them) so, the best thing that I can do is through this blog...

slow down....

People are not perfect
and that's the fact
where people acknowledge but forget
once your friends is caught on act
... is my lingo correct???
Hahaha...what do you think???Nice intro isn't it? Just came out from my brain to my right hand without me knowing it...well, just forget about it...

I've read a blog that talk(well not just talk but a lil bit of mock) her own friend....I found it a bit too harsh of her talking about her friend although she did not revealed which friend of her...people make mistakes, and others who watch know which is the best way of dealing the situation/problem and know if the outcome will turn out good or bad but when they are in the situation, the same mistakes happen...for me, Internet is not the place for you to talk bad things about him/her. its OK if your intention is to give lessons to others but with the correct usage of words....but the correct way is to talk to her face and it also depends whether he/she can take it or not...some people found it a bit harsh to say it on their face so that's where third party or intermediates exist. some prefer the other way as problem that occur should just be settled between those who actively involved...all I want to say is,

"friendship is a delicious and sweet fruits which you get from trees that you grew and took good care of as she/he is the seed while you are the soil and water is the pure heart of both parties, carbon dioxide is the sadness and tears that both sighs to each other shoulder and the sun is the happy, joy and priceless moments of you together."
(This theory by Yukilili can also be applied on love perspectives)

I used to have this kind of beautiful friendship but our ship sank as communication between us getting awkward which I believe she realize and yes, its my fault...once I got angry, I mock others who make my day gloom which resulted she afraid if she might hurt me as well and will face the same situation like others...I blame her not but if she can woke me up from the bad side of me that would be better and I will definitely repair our ship. I AM repairing our ship but she seems to left me alone with all the work...this happened because both of us have telephones but we do not communicate...right now, I'm still alone with our ship just in case she would be back to have another adventurous journey together but of course I'm still gardening other types of plants too as Malay people said "bercinta biar satu, berkawan biar seribu" which means love should only involved one person while friendship, thousands....is my translation correct? If not please tell me. Sharing knowledge is also one of beautiful thing life...
p/s: please forgive my grammar...

blue syndrome?

have you ever wonder why there are certain people who walks his or her life so painfully yet in front of people they dare to say this life is a wonderful thing and they purely agree. i wonder, not. its the same thing as what you always do in your daily routine, you go to school or work, talk almost about everything to your family or friends and even your partner, you have fun, you eat your favorites food, you give love and happily receive love but once your feet reach your room and the door is lock, you cry not but the tears just keep streaming out. There are no reasons for the tears to be invited. And you start to think why or what makes you cry but you don't get the answer. You don't even understand yourself. I know because it’s been years now yet I still don't have the answer...I am not crazy for sure, just stress. Yet does it powerful enough that even your mind cannot control your body or your body cannot control your mind? I wish there is an answer for that...and maybe some people out there also want to know what went wrong. This life is indeed an exciting place...i'm on my way of enjoying it and of course appreciating it. for me, no matter how hard your life is, no matter how many nights you have filled with silent tears to accompany you to bed, just keep walk on, straight and confidant yet with proud not but smile and carry with you love and faith in your heart while holding someone's hand. Hope you, who read this and understand, will end it with a smile.

list of meaningful songs

Aaron - U-turn (lili)
Imogen Heap - Speeding Cars
Eric Clapton - Tears in heaven
Lighthouse Family - High
Enigma - Return to Innocence
Alanis Morissette - Uninvited
- Crazy
Jewel - Hand
- Foolish Games
James Morisson - The Pieces Dont Fit Anymore
Christina Aguilera - Hurt
Rob Thomas - Ever the Same

ASIAN
X Japan - The Last Song
- Tears
- Forever Love
Tohoshinki/DBSK - Love in the Ice
- Rainbow
- 'O' Jung.Ban.hap
- Whatever They Say(acapella version)
Utada Hikaru - Flavour of Life
Epik High - One

these songs are just some of my favourite which i can recall.....

my man...

dilemma...

that’s what people usually said when they are stuck between 2 things....for me I’m stuck between my mom's hope or my ambition. My mom wants me to be a teacher, English teacher like her and just like my sisters. One of them is already an English teacher and the other one is studying TEASL in UTM and might be an English teacher too. Well, for your information, my late grandfather was a teacher...and today is Teacher's Day.TEACHER TEACHER TEACHER!!!!ohhh god....fuhhh....calm down calm down...well, good thing about being a teacher is you'll get lots of presents during teacher's day. I want to be a tourist guide. Some people might say it’s not worth it when you are actually a university student and will have your Bachelor in 3 more years to come...but I just can’t sit/stand still in a place with the same routine. I want to go outside of the world that I live in for 19 years. I want new experience in new place where language is a barrier. I want to do something adventurous like going to Cambodia,Vietnam,South Korea, or Indonesia for example and help those who need knowledge and help...Malaysia have toooooo many teachers to start with...other countries don’t, I guess...its not that I want to be a teacher in other countries, I just want to give free knowledge about everything to those who have lots of questions and curious about the outside world. Like a volunteer who live, eat, sleep in a village, mix with all the villagers but with a stable job there...Now, i just don’t know...maybe I’ll just wait and see whets going to happen...

My first step.

friends are good to have and it is the best thing that a person can have but sometimes being alone is better...this is when you can actually express yourself, i mean reeaaaaly express yourself without hurting, or might hurt people around you or even yourself...so this is what i'm going to do...i want to share with someone...its true, even if only one person....as i want to believe that being different is not wrong...what is so different about me...well, then you have to read my blog(n_n)....